The "Man of the Hour"

Have you ever found yourself while resting, staring off into space, or taking a walk, talking to someone, who does in fact exist in your life, but who is not  physically in the room or space that you occupy?

I do this a lot. Psychologists might call it "role play" and to a certain degree I'm sure they would say it's healthy.

I think it's healthy as well, though I'm guessing I do this more than your average homo sapien. whether that's healthy or not.....who knows?

I enjoy having conversations with people who I know who are not actually there. It gives me a sense of space and a sense of practice.....space and practice.....two things that I enjoy immensely.

The Man or Woman of the Hour
I notice that as I progress through my life I often choose one person (usually a man and usually....interestingly enough.....a romantic or sexual interest for me) to be the main person I have these imaginary conversations with. I have conversations with other people (especially angry conversations as I struggle showing my anger in the real world) but mostly with my "Man of the Hour."

I never used to question or analyze the fact that I was having imaginary conversations with a man who more often than not I really didn't know very well at all in the real world. However, for whatever reason, I often feel that I have known these men well enough in soul that I WANT to talk with them.


The "Man of the Hour" generally changes every 2-3 years and lately, with my current "Man of the Hour" I've analyzed the situation more deeply. Here's some questions I've asked myself?

1) Why this man?
2) What are the characteristics of this man that make me want to be "close" to him even though I'm not physically close with him?
3) Does he actually represent some kind of personal nemesis I am trying to overcome?
4) Is he a persona that would be healthy for me to embody and become conscious of in some way?

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